Just Donating

Played a HU session last night; ended up losing about 5 buyins (NL200) to a rather fishy player, so it was pretty frustrating. I guess that's not abnormal for heads up, as it's a high variance game, but it still makes me feel like I'm the worst HU player in the universe. For some reason, it's always much harder for me to accept losing to a worse player than to a player better than me--it's like somehow I think I should be rewarded for being a more thinking player, even in the short term. Like this game owes me something. It's stupid.

Regardless, I am not a good HU player by any stretch of the imagination and I hope I can improve with more practice. I think HU is the best form of poker and the greatest test of a poker player's skills, but I find it very stressful. I hate the constant second-guessing I do about how well I'm adjusting to my opponent and how much he's adjusting to me. Basically, I think my lack of confidence inhibits my development a lot. I guess this is true in all aspects of my life, heh.