Results Oriented

Put in a couple hours at Pokerstars tonight; lost like 3 buyins b/c that's how I roll these days but feel like I played very well overall. Ran my overpairs into sets twice [neither were places I could even consider folding--one was a reraised pot and the other a super-drawy flop against a guy with a postflop AF of like 12(!)]. Got sucked out on in one big pot with bottom set against a flush draw.

I'm planning to play a lot more at Pokerstars this year. I figure I can put in enough hands to make their points system be worth more than rakeback at Full Tilt. Also, there's something kind of alluring to me about chasing supernova--I can be less results oriented in the short term and just focus my obsession of "keeping score" on seeing how many player points I can accumulate. Pokerstars really has a fantastic rewards program for heavy multi-tablers--I think someone calculated that achieving "Supernova Elite" is worth over $100K in and of itself (in terms of the different bonuses you get as you accumulate points). It won't be possible for me to get Elite w/ a full-time day job, but if I don't get to supernova by the end of the year, I'll be highly disappointed. Only two problems stand in my way right now--one, I am not nearly as used to Stars' software as I am to FTP, so it's gonna take me a while to work up to 12 tables. I only played six tonight and probably shouldn't go above 8 for the time being. Second problem is simply that the full-ring tables are infested with multitabling 2p2ers; I feel like NL200 at Stars plays like NL400 at Full Tilt. And it's weird not having any read on the regulars yet -- I feel like I can't take any nonstandard lines b/c I don't know how anyone will react to them. (Maybe this is a good thing, heh.)

OK, my third problem is that if I don't stop running bad soon I'm gonna bust my Stars account. I've never busted an account in my life, and I don't really want to start now!...I'm not actually in much danger of losing my Stars roll, but it would be kind of demoralizing to have to move down to NL100. This month so far has been demoralizing enough. I'm getting seriously worried that this is going to be my first losing month ever, which would be pretty funny* considering December was my best month ever. *Unfortunately, I don't mean funny as in Woody Allen-movie funny, but more like "please just shoot me now" funny.

Here is the best example of why poker is a cruel, cruel game and how it can toy with you. First graph is the first 15 days of December (hottest I've ever run); second is the first 15 days of January (not the worst I've ever run, but painful nonetheless).

December:


January:


The one good thing about downswings is they really motivate me to work on my game. I hate losing. Gonna go watch a video and try to plug a leak or two.

More on Downswings

Meant to post this before. This is something Jman on 2p2 posted in his "in the well" thread, which is the best thread I've read in a loooong, looong time. The part about going on autopilot when running bad really hit home for me -- I never realized how true that is of myself until I read it. Anyway, quote:

people play worse and less decisively when stuck. They don't trust their decisions as much. The opposite is true for players who are running better.

Also when players are losing, they often go on autopilot and hope to run good. Players who are winning think about every hand and look for any +EV spot. This might have the effect of the losing player not fighting for the small pots.

Someone losing is often scared to make correct plays because they feel their opponent is inside their head. They can envision their (good) river bluff getting snapcalled with bottom pair, so they opt not to make it. Things like that.

Lazy

Got a million things to do at work but can't seem to get myself motivated to do more than the bare minimum. Standard Monday. Mid-year performance reviews were due today (basically we review our own performance--it's all very dumb); I just hope they don't tell me I have to start getting into work on time. No matter what I do, I always seem to get here 20 minutes late. I usually get to the parking garage on time, though--they should start the clock there!

My brother went back to school yesterday. I'm looking forward to getting the basement cleaned up and organized now. Matt is possibly the messiest person I have ever known. Still, I miss having him around; life is always duller when he's not here to annoy me.

Didn't play any poker yesterday, which is a good thing I suppose, although it sucks for the bankroll only playing 1 out of 3 weekend days. I did watch a couple of videos, even one on limit hold 'em (!). Usually the games are the worst on Monday and Tuesday, so I don't know if I'll bother playing tonight. Maybe just clean the basement some more.

Went out to dinner Friday with friends at a place called Uncommon Ground in Wrigleyville. Some pictures:

My friend Lauren and her boyfriend, Jeff. I love Lauren's expression here--the menu is very surprising!


Matt, Virag and Murtaza


Murtaza's girlfriend is fostering an awesome older dog--we stopped by her apt to visit it. I think Matt fell in love.

Not Quite There

Trying to climb out of my downswing; played decently today for the most part. Flopping the underset in 3 big hands didn't help the cause much, though. Here's the worst of them:

Full Tilt Poker, $2/$4 NL Hold'em Cash Game, 9 Players
LeggoPoker.com Hand History Converter

CO: $761.25
BTN: $472.90
SB: $361.50
BB: $192.50
UTG: $95.90
UTG+1: $634.40
UTG+2: $104
Hero (MP1): $720.40
MP2: $410.70

Pre-Flop: Kh Kd dealt to Hero (MP1)
UTG calls $4, UTG+1 raises to $18, UTG+2 folds, Hero raises to $64, 6 folds, UTG+1 calls $46

Flop: ($138) Ks As Qs (2 Players)
UTG+1 checks, Hero bets $80, UTG+1 raises to $326, Hero raises to $656.40 and is All-In, UTG+1 calls $244.40 and is All-In

Turn: ($1,278.80) 5h (2 Players - 1 is All-In)

River: ($1,278.80) 8d (2 Players - 1 is All-In)

Results: $1,278.80 Pot ($3 Rake)
UTG+1 showed Ah Ad (three of a kind, Aces) and WON $1,275.80 (+$641.40 NET)
Hero showed Kh Kd (three of a kind, Kings) and LOST (-$634.40 NET)


I made one stupid stack-off preflop to Stylistic (AJs < AK) and a couple bets I wish I could take back. On the other hand, at least I'm not as bad as villain in this hand:

Full Tilt Poker, $2/$4 NL Hold'em Cash Game, 9 Players
LeggoPoker.com Hand History Converter

MP1: $470.30
MP2: $628.60
CO: $92.20
BTN: $400
SB: $402
BB: $232
UTG: $133.80
Hero (UTG+1): $1,089
UTG+2: $392

MP2 posts $2
MP2 posts $4
Pre-Flop: Ks Kc dealt to Hero (UTG+1)
UTG folds, Hero raises to $20, 2 folds, MP2 calls $16, 4 folds

Flop: ($46) Qh 2d 6s (2 Players)
Hero bets $32, MP2 calls $32

Turn: ($110) 4h (2 Players)
Hero checks, MP2 bets $64, Hero raises to $172, MP2 calls $108

River: ($454) 2c (2 Players)
Hero bets $865 and is All-In, MP2 calls $402.60

Results: $1,259.20 Pot ($3 Rake)
MP2 showed 3c 3h (two pair, Threes and Twos) and LOST (-$626.60 NET)
Hero showed Ks Kc (two pair, Kings and Twos) and WON $1,258.20 (+$631.60 NET)

Downswings Suck

Not much to say here. Playing meh, running bad, frustration level is high. I have a hard time keeping my confidence level up when I go through a downswing. Poker is the ultimate mind-fuck, I guess. When you run hot, you feel like you got the whole game figured out, bad beats just roll off your back, your winrate feels invincible. When you run bad, everything seems to go wrong -- bluffs don't work, you don't get enough value out of your big hands, sometimes it even feels like opponents can see your fucking hole cards.

I did play this fun hand yesterday, which one of the regs posted on 2p2:



I had AsKs, obv. :-)